I got laid off in March as a software engineer 2 and since then I’ve hardly applied to many jobs, of the few I’ve applied to I got a handful of interviews which I couldn’t even clear the first round of Leetcode test. I can barely solve 1 or 2 LC questions a day, and I’ve tried to read system design for a while but can’t find any interest in it. Even if I solve the interview questions we’ll I’ve been rejected, everything feels so pointless. I just want to play video games and watch movies till these darks days pass and there’s another boon in tech hiring. But with AI it feels like many jobs won’t ever come back. Should I consider changing careers or moving to another country. I don’t think I have any real passion or talent for programming, but it’s the only skill I have right now. I don’t know what level of panic I should be feeling right now. I don’t have any close friends or supportive family to talk to about any of this.
Yeah it’s a slog to find someone who A - gives a shit about you and B - is good at their job to accurately diagnose and help you. But what other option is there, you just have to keep putting effort and money towards this till something clicks. I had been to a psychologist in the past who just diagnosed me as bipolar 2, and gave me some meds, the Ritalin helped for concentration and energy, the other meds just gave me bad sideffects that he wasn’t even interested in talking about, just wanted to prescribe me some more meds and end the session. Had to drop him.